Would you guys think I am a fence sitter for being Agnostic?
I was born and raised in the Presbyterian Church. My Mother and older brother are Presbyterians, so are her late parents (my grandfather was a Roman Catholic then converted when he met and married my grandmother). My father is a Roman Catholic along with his family. His brother-in-law (My Uncle by marriage) is a Protestant I think but not sure of his exact denomination and a few cousin in laws on his side are Greek Orthodox. So as you can see, a little backstory of why I been struggling with this.
I was never a "bible thumper" but I would also think atheists were crazy not to believe in at least something.
But over the past few years, the seeds started to get planted in my head. Do animals go to heaven? Do we really have souls and even if we did, how can we have ghosts and souls roaming around when your brain is decayed decades after you kick the bucket? The past few months up to now I'm almost at that point where I can officially say I don't really outright believe.
Why am I not a Atheist then? Well, 1. I still hope in some way there is something on the other side besides eternal oblivion. 2. How can I say God isn't real, when I can't prove it? I can't prove he is REAL, but can't prove that he's NOT REAL. So that's why I believe I am in the middle. Is there A GOD? Sure. I don't believe in Heaven and Hell in the sense like you see in the movies, and I know die hard science people don't like this as a argument, but why is Earth in such a good spot? A few degrees here or a few changes there and human life would not be here. Is this really of A God's design, or just a really fluky science thing that we can't explain yet?
So yeah, I'm in the middle. But I feel like a fence sitter. All the religion people would probably love to debate me "YOU HEATHEN YOU!!!!" but then atheists would love to get mad at me to I bet "HOW CAN YOU STILL SLIGHTLY THINK THERE IS A MAN OR WOMAN IN THE SKY!!!!".
Is being Agnostic wrong? Am I wrong?