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Dirty Chai
Edward had spent the entirety of his life - that is, life after the death of his mother - with the advice and opinions of Roger de Clifford in his ear. Sometimes good, sometimes bad, usually somewhere in between. But it came from the most loyal, longstanding mouth, and thus the king - a king of air, with less than twenty subjects - valued this man's discourse, no matter how much he disagreed with it (which was often).
On the topic of his mother.. he often thinks of what she might do, in given circumstances akin to the ones he's come across, if she still yet lived. Indeed, his mother - not his father - was the one with a profound shadow in his childhood recollections. But it also occurred to him that her history and experiences - or rather, the little he knew of her from his assuredly one-sided point of view - showed she was no more a role model than his father or the living companions beside him today.
The most ample advice the prince'd ever received came from the long dead. A lot of dead Italians, but most particularly Sir John Fortescue. He'd not read the man's words until long after he'd deserted him and returned to England with a pardon - and now had died last year, Ed had learned recently - but what Sir Fortescue, a justice of the king's bench, had left for Edward was profound. Similarly, he tried to find advice in the works of the poets - particularly during his detainment in Genoa; the inferno held much in his imagination, but offered little practical knowledge.
He most regretted the deaths of his former followers, particularly John de Vere and Beaumont. And surprising himself, he no longer blamed Butler for deserting them, considering what befell those who stayed loyal. There was a growing sense, especially as Westminster aged closer into the middle of most men's lives, that he had been inadequately prepared - not only to lead, but to even comprehend much of the world around him. A part of him feared that impossible dream which consumed his very soul - England. All he could imagine was the rivers running with blood from all those lords who had turned away from him. And that was..
"Where do we get these men?" Lancaster asked after a moment with a sleepy blink of the eyes, referring to the men they believed they required to take control of Bar.
"Well.. that must not be hard," he quite quickly added, "these are the periphery principalities. The empire. And war has just ended. There must be plenty of soldiers of fortune roving the countryside in search of work."
"Écorcheurs," Ed feigned a horrible Parisian accent, mocking it.
A long pause, a sniff of the nose. Another tap of the knuckles, this time almost inaudible.
"But these men will be untenable. They're more likely to become bandits. They'll not give me a cent when they're done. We need loyal men."