What is God, to me? To answer this question, I must first ask this: why must God be proclaimed a conscious being? If God is a conscious being, then the aforementioned logic applies. But if unconscious, then a whole new ball game results. God, to me, is not an individual, but the compilation of all of the energy in the universe, including our own selves. We are God. Let me explain. Imagine that the universe is a magnet with two countering forces, the negative and the positive side. These two forces struggle against each other in an immortal and therefore perpetual cycle of conflict and balance. Out of this conflict, the universe takes its force, out of this force, energy ensues, and out of this energy, existence is formulated.
But let’s not say the word ‘formulated’… it is the improper term for such a philosophy, for in order for this philosophy to work, one must abide by two principles: The first is the principle of the conservation of matter. Matter cannot be created nor destroyed. Therefore, if matter stays the same eternal and can only be distributed and morphed according to the present laws of chemistry, then there is no creation and no destruction, only separation and distribution. Second, if this principle is maintained, then the principle of time must also be dismissed. Time is, in essence, a man-made invention. Although nature does coordinate itself according to a somewhat foreseeable pattern of progress, this pattern does not signify that there is a beginning and an end to all matter in the universe. Rather, it means that things are evenly distributed and balanced all over the universe in an orderly manner. Time was created by the human mind in order to keep track of this process of balance, and by this pretense and by the observation of the process that we configured with our human logic, and from what we termed ‘the birth and death’ of trees and animals, to the cycle between the coming of the moon to the coming of the sun, we determined that the universe had to have a beginning and an end. We logically predicted that if humans and nature alike showed this same pattern of 'life and death' in their limited existence, then the universe must also be the same. And therefore, through this logic, we invented God, the creator and destroyer of the universe, for in his absence, the logic would fail to be.
What we failed to take note of was the fact that nature does not have a beginning and an end. Nature is recycled. The beginning is the end and the end the beginning. Our birth is our death, and our death is our birth. When we die, we decay into organic material. This organic material is not dead, for it feeds into the ground and fertilizes it, therefore providing life to the ground beneath us. The ground beneath us feeds the plants. The plants feed the animals. The animals feed the humans. And these same humans die and feed the ground. Spring befalls summer, which befalls fall, which befalls winter. Winter befalls spring, which befalls summer, which befalls fall. And so on... all in a perpetual cycle of energy. And although the process does find an end, it is not an end exerted by itself, but by the redistribution of matter around itself.
This brings up two further questions. The first, is the question of where life comes from if there is no creation, and the second, is the predilection that if we are all but matter within the recycling and redistribution of the universe, then the self and the individual are also man-made pretenses. I will answer the first question first. The question of where life comes from is the one that I hold the most doubt in, for there is little logic explanation. According to this philosophy, life comes from the conflict of forces in the universe and the energy that it creates. Within this solar system’s context, life comes from the sun’s energy. Matter is lifeless or inorganic in every planet but that of Earth (and maybe on the moon Enceladus in Saturn), so how then does life occur? It can’t occur from nothing, but can it be a chemical reaction? If microscopic life forms when a chemical reaction between salt water and other elements and the energy of the Sun occurs, then the question of where life comes from is solved. So far, neither I nor any other person that I know of has been able to find factual evidence to support this claim, but it is logical if true. If there is energy and water, then can life not morph out of these two combinations? But there is no proof to this, so it has to be set aside. The second theory pertinent to this philosophy but of which must abide with the first is the possibility that life was imported to Earth from another planet (Mars may have had life hundreds of millions of years ago or from a meteor containing microscopic organisms that collided with the Earth). But if this is true, then where did that life come from? This is the only issue with this philosophy, for if life cannot be created from the random combination of energy and matter, then it has to come from a divine being. But if it can come from this combination, then all else follows. Evolution is but the outcome of life. It is incredible that out of one microscopic organic particle, we were created... but according to all scientific evidence gathered, this is truly so.
Now, to explain the second question in which the idea of the individual, or the self, is dismissed. If the self is but a fantasy of the mind, it would mean that all individuals are part of the same process, and that in the end of our organic lifetime, we will all rejoin this process and recycle from matter to other matter. This philosophy coordinates itself with the Indian philosophy of the Moksha, or the universal spirit and the recycling of the soul from death unto life and from life unto death. Many questions arise. The most troubling question comes with the denial of the self. If we are but particles of matter awaiting our redistribution, then all ideals of conscious and individuality must be set aside. But this is not so, for although we change from day to day, and we were not the same person we were yesterday, we are the same selves in the here and now. The self exists, but only in the present reality. As redistribution of matter continues, the self changes along with the process, but the idea of the self still remains within the present reality, and as such, it makes part of the process and is an important element for the process itself to work.
I’ll provide two examples in order to explain the logic, one psychological, and the other through this e-mail’s content. The first example comes from a psychology case study which I read a couple of months ago. A woman in her mid 30s experienced massive brain damage that distorted her sensory brain capabilities. After the brain damage, whenever the lady saw a couple kissing, she felt the couple’s kiss in her lips. She had lost her ability to sense her own touch, but gained the ability to sense the touch of others. Through this case study, I begun to doubt reality and the self. Is reality real, or are we living in a mind-created fantasy? The self is a subjective thing. We are not really ourselves, but what our mind tells us that we are. As Descartes says, we think, therefore we are. Now, there are two ways to analyze the question on whether reality is real or not.
The first: No, it is not real within the objective universe, for we are not really ourselves but matter within this charted and balanced conflicting universe. The second:
Yes, it is really real because we think it’s real. A healthy man who’s been taught to think that he’s a cripple since childhood will really believe that he is a cripple and act as such, even though he really is not a cripple and can walk perfectly fine. As such, we all believe that our reality is real, and therefore, we act it out as such, even if it isn’t real. But the mere fact that we think it is real, makes it real to our own selves.
The second example comes from this e-mail. After I send you this email and you read it completely, your mind will assess this information and change some of its pattern of logic. After this change comes about, a few of your neurons will redistribute themselves in order to formulate this new pattern. Therefore, the day after you read this, you will be a different person because of it. Slightly so, but you will still be different. This will make you a different self than the self that you were yesterday. And being a different self means that the idea of the self can be dismissed altogether, for if you are not the same self you were yesterday, then there is no constant self at all, only a self that is temporary and that will join with the ALL as change continues its immortal course.
If one understands all of these factors, then the puzzle quickly formulates by itself. One must see to it that one understands the pace at which the universe changes. Second by second, the reality that surrounds one changes itself. Second by second, the matter within and around one distributes itself. Second by second, the two conflicting poles of the immortal, constant, yet ever-changing universe conflict with each other. I am your matter, you are my matter, we are the matter of nature, nature is the matter of the universe. We are all combined, we are all separate. We are all individual entities within our individual realities, yet we are one combined entity within one combined reality. Immortality… that is God. We are God. God is us.
I hope that you understand this philosophy. It reminds me of the one Beatles song ‘I am the Walrus’… You know… “I am he, as you are he, as you are me, and we are all together”. Haha… And to think that the Indians were thinking about this 4,000 years into the past! Oh… humans haven’t changed a bit… our access of information, our technology, and standards of living have expanded, yet our minds have evolved very little in the past 5,000 years. Always look back to history, for all the answers are already there. All one has to do is look, and there lies the answer to one’s question.