Indeed. I certainly can understand why many are led to atheism, but I simply cannot ignore my emotions. The problem though is that I also pride myself in being a rational thinker. Thus the confusion. Ultimately though as you said, it is simply easier for me to believe there has to be something higher.
Perhaps that is weak, but it simply seems to be an intricate part of who I am. Who mankind is. When I view debates I always side with the atheists because debates are based on logic and their logic certainly wins out.
I just feel that this viewpoint is missing something though. Something that people on the streets see. Something that has led man to religion since the begging of time. Obviously fear plays a role, insecurity, but also awe.
I was awed to turn to the page that contained the exact answer I was looking for. I was awed the first time I ever saw a mountain. I am continually awed when I embrace my love. I am awed by my elders who have such keep their faith with such dignity and will. Life is one big wonder after the other. It seems rather optimistic to assume this means after death we get to walk on golden streets, but all this awe seems to point to something. What exactly this is I am not sure, but surely something. This key aspect is completely ignored in all the religous debates.
I however completely ambivalence. It is very hard to distinguish if all this emotion is merely wishful thinking. Logically certainly tells me so.
Anyways thank you for the response. I should probably read War & Peace, but the size is simply too daunting.
