The Chemical God

[Lemonjello]

I am what many of you would call a drug addict. The more open minded would addend the adjective functional to that definition, but it would be an addiction nonetheless. I have neglected my duties to myself, and have instead fed my head instead of working for happiness. This makes many people unhappy. They say I have a problem. I say that they are the ones who have a problem. They crawl on their hands and knees to paradise, while I get there in a few minutes for $50 a hit. The regressive forces of society, religious and secular, have joined forces to prevent man from attaining nirvana. There are those who say it drains the soul, and makes man a monster, desperately craving his next fix.

I say they are wrong, wrong, wrong. That cold, unfeeling brute of a force, the flame of Prometheus, has finally solved the age old problem of the human condition. Philosophy and art attempted to help us overcome it, religion tried to fill the void with God, and everything in between has attempted to help man be content with himself. But none of it worked. Promise was shown with alcohol, but it was imperfect. But it hit upon something: chemical manipulation could give man what he wanted without any of the tortuous, damning, self-contradicting work of tearing it away from others.

This was my epiphany - my enlightenment. I first hit upon it when I was but a child of sixteen; I discovered a bottle of codeine based cold medicine and took about thrice the dosage prescribed on the label. I felt wonderful, like one of the angels in heaven must feel like. A welcome drowsiness overtook me - not like one of those that drag you along to sleep, but as if I was already basking in the afterglow of a lovers' tryst. I let the floor envelop me, and though there was no matttress for me to lie on, or blanket to cover me, I had never slept better.

I will spare my audience the nit picking details of my journey to bliss, but I shall tell you this: enlightenment is hell. Enlightenment shows you the ugly realities of life, and God. Who was this God? He cast people who had not surrendered him into a pit of fire for eternity. Perhaps we are already there. But I digress. Buddha wanted me to walk his tightrope, Yahweh wanted adherence to irrational laws governing my diet, and so on.

What did heroin want? Nothing. Heroin never wanted anything from me.

I am strong. I am functional. At the end of the day, I shoot up and I feel better than God. God is jealous and wrathful. Every neuron in my body is immolated in ecstasy. My god is an arrangment of chemicals, and the only thing I have to do for it is cook it in a spoon, put it in a needle, and find the main line. Genocide in Darfur? Problems with my family? America going down the tubes? Son, I couldn't care about those things if I could even think about them. Heroin makes life more than tolerable: it makes life great. Even better than that, it is killing me. Soon, I will not have to deal with the human condition. I will be Dead. And Life, while I have it, will be more than worth living.

Feel free to flame me, but check your Huxley at the door.

[Earl of Rochester]

Huxley is my favorite writer and while I certainly will not try to judge you it is worth to mention that he would not have condoned your drug use. He detested people who used it as an escape which appears to be what you are doing. Drugs have been used since ancient times to bring spiritual understanding and still can, but drug addiction always has and always will be nothing more than self-destruction. Those are my opinions on the subject, you are completely free to yours. Thank you though for your interesting post, much better than the typical "Who has a bigger penis-Jesus or Mohamed?" thread.

[Lemonjello]

Huxley is my favorite writer and while I certainly will not try to judge you it is worth to mention that he would not have condoned your drug use. He detested people who used it as an escape which appears to be what you are doing. Drugs have been used since ancient times to bring spiritual understanding and still can, but drug addiction always has and always will be nothing more than self-destruction. Those are my opinions on the subject, you are completely free to yours. Thank you though for your interesting post, much better than the typical "Who has a bigger penis-Jesus or Mohamed?" thread.

The spirtual is merely a way of escaping. What wonder it must be to think that your toil and suffering will be rewarded with eternal life! I've already found bliss in life, and look forward to death. So, is anyone willing to take this seriously?

[Earl of Rochester]

The spiritual is a way of finding greater appreciation of life, only religions worry about what comes next. You can find plenty of bliss in this life, drugs are certainly one means of that. I have found greater understanding of myself and the world after experimentation with some hallucinogens and eagerly await trying some more potent stuff, but these things should never be in end all. But each to his own.

But, I ask why do you think I haven't taken this seriously? I am an avid reader of Huxley and user of mind altering drugs. I've never done heroin, but I am certainly interested in it. To some extent I agree with your line of thinking, just believe you are taking things too far. Nothing good ever comes from the extreme.

[Mythos]

Drugs are for weaklings. Those that see the world and are too afraid to face the cold reality. In the end, no matter how many shots you take, genocide will still be taking place in Darfur, you will still have problems with your family and America will still be going down and all you will want is to go back to your bubble. You are not free because of drugs, you are a slave to them. You will naturally disagree. After all, junkies will do or say anything for their fix, right?

[Lemonjello]

Drugs are for weaklings. Those that see the world and are too afraid to face the cold reality. In the end, no matter how many shots you take, genocide will still be taking place in Darfur, you will still have problems with your family and America will still be going down and all you will want is to go back to your bubble. You are not free because of drugs, you are a slave to them. You will naturally disagree. After all, junkies will do or say anything for their fix, right?

I don't deny their existence at all.

I just realize they don't matter. That is my spiritual revelation, as other might term it.

[MonopthalmusLXXXVIII]

I used to have PLENTY of "spiritual revelations" on drugs. Nothing is better than a clear head, drugs make one weak.

[Rhinosaur]

I am what many of you would call a drug addict. The more open minded would addend the adjective functional to that definition, but it would be an addiction nonetheless. I have neglected my duties to myself, and have instead fed my head instead of working for happiness. This makes many people unhappy. They say I have a problem. I say that they are the ones who have a problem. They crawl on their hands and knees to paradise, while I get there in a few minutes for $50 a hit. The regressive forces of society, religious and secular, have joined forces to prevent man from attaining nirvana. There are those who say it drains the soul, and makes man a monster, desperately craving his next fix.

I say they are wrong, wrong, wrong. That cold, unfeeling brute of a force, the flame of Prometheus, has finally solved the age old problem of the human condition. Philosophy and art attempted to help us overcome it, religion tried to fill the void with God, and everything in between has attempted to help man be content with himself. But none of it worked. Promise was shown with alcohol, but it was imperfect. But it hit upon something: chemical manipulation could give man what he wanted without any of the tortuous, damning, self-contradicting work of tearing it away from others.

This was my epiphany - my enlightenment. I first hit upon it when I was but a child of sixteen; I discovered a bottle of codeine based cold medicine and took about thrice the dosage prescribed on the label. I felt wonderful, like one of the angels in heaven must feel like. A welcome drowsiness overtook me - not like one of those that drag you along to sleep, but as if I was already basking in the afterglow of a lovers' tryst. I let the floor envelop me, and though there was no matttress for me to lie on, or blanket to cover me, I had never slept better.

I will spare my audience the nit picking details of my journey to bliss, but I shall tell you this: enlightenment is hell. Enlightenment shows you the ugly realities of life, and God. Who was this God? He cast people who had not surrendered him into a pit of fire for eternity. Perhaps we are already there. But I digress. Buddha wanted me to walk his tightrope, Yahweh wanted adherence to irrational laws governing my diet, and so on.

What did heroin want? Nothing. Heroin never wanted anything from me.

I am strong. I am functional. At the end of the day, I shoot up and I feel better than God. God is jealous and wrathful. Every neuron in my body is immolated in ecstasy. My god is an arrangment of chemicals, and the only thing I have to do for it is cook it in a spoon, put it in a needle, and find the main line. Genocide in Darfur? Problems with my family? America going down the tubes? Son, I couldn't care about those things if I could even think about them. Heroin makes life more than tolerable: it makes life great. Even better than that, it is killing me. Soon, I will not have to deal with the human condition. I will be Dead. And Life, while I have it, will be more than worth living.

Feel free to flame me, but check your Huxley at the door.

So this is pretty much the standard angsty "I'm an atheist, deal with it" thread with a side of "I like smack". How early 1990s of you.

Why don't you go start a grunge band about it?

[MonopthalmusLXXXVIII]

I have a question, were you high when you posted this trash?

[Rhinosaur]

I have a question, were you high when you posted this trash?

Me or the OP?

[Jabberwock]

I will spare my audience the nit picking details of my journey to bliss, but I shall tell you this: enlightenment is hell. Enlightenment shows you the ugly realities of life, and God. Who was this God? He cast people who had not surrendered him into a pit of fire for eternity. Perhaps we are already there. But I digress. Buddha wanted me to walk his tightrope, Yahweh wanted adherence to irrational laws governing my diet, and so on.

What did heroin want? Nothing. Heroin never wanted anything from me.

All in all, you're confused. Your bliss is illusory, as a matter of fact I think it's your bliss that is blinding you. Your god is not some supernatural creature, he's human. A human being is your god because it is he that provides.

What did heroin want? Nothing. Heroin never wanted anything from me.

Wrong. Who is the Great Giver and Mighty Creator of thy heroine? What does He want? Everything. As I said, you've been blinded to the fact.

An addict is nothing more than a prisoner in a prison with invisible bars and chains. Invisible to even himself.

I'm gonna guess it say a Great Giver never refused you. I'm curious, what kind of environment you live in?

[Exarch]

Lemonjello,
are u aware of what heroin will eventually do to ur body?
and are u also aware that heroin is an illegal drug?
of course u have every right to do wateva u want with ur body but can u imagine the pain u might be putting ur family and friends thru?
i'm an atheist but i'm strongly against recreational drugs, preferring more natural highs like being in love and playing music, or reading a great novel
there are better ways to escape from this world dood; like TW games
u dont need that heroin.

[MonopthalmusLXXXVIII]

Oh no...excuse me Rhinosaur, I was directing that question at lemonjello. I just don't understand how someone could be that unwise, to post something of that nature.

So, No. Sorry

[Rhinosaur]

Oh no...excuse me Rhinosaur, I was directing that question at lemonjello. I just don't understand how someone could be that unwise, to post something of that nature.

So, No. Sorry

Don't worry about it.

[Jabberwock]

are u aware of what heroin will eventually do to ur body?

It gives bliss and enlightenment.

and are u also aware that heroin is an illegal drug?

Who cares.

of course u have every right to do wateva u want with ur body but can u imagine the pain u might be putting ur family and friends thru?

Irrelevant.

there are better ways to escape from this world dood; like TW games

TW games? Oh yes, total war, killing of hundreds is going to help him escape from this world...

[Exarch]

TW games? Oh yes, total war, killing of hundreds is going to help him escape from this world...

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i think ur confusing cgi units with real ppl.
lemonjello's taking drugs is hurting ppl who care for him.

[Jabberwock]

i think ur confusing cgi units with real ppl.

CGI units which are a representation of real people.
What are TW games but a sugarcoating of reality. War is fun kids, enjoy!

The irony of you suggesting a game with total war in its name to escape from the realities of this world is hilarious.

lemonjello's taking drugs is hurting ppl who care for him.

Why should he sacrifice his enlightenment for the sake of others?
Maybe these people should start caring more about themselves.

[Exarch]

What are TW games but a sugarcoating of reality. War is fun kids, enjoy!

i think everyone knows the difference between video gaems and reality. for instance, in TWgames u never have to bother with mud, and cold and the psych trauma from being in a real battle and the psych probs of killing ppl-no post traumatic stress disorder. your insinuation that they're the same is sadly misguided.

The irony of you suggesting a game with total war in its name to escape from the realities of this world is hilarious.

refer above. also, TW games are an escape as all games are, where u get to becoem someone else-a powerful king or a military genius revered by the mob.

Why should he sacrifice his enlightenment for the sake of others?

because
1) it's not 'enlightenment', merely a pleasurable feeling of drugs ****ing with his brain. and
2) ppl who care for him would suffer, as they would undoubtedly attempt to get him off the drug. at 50 bux a hit thsat's a lot of money going up his arm instead of helping himself.

Maybe these people should start caring more about themselves

u start caring for others, when u start caring for urselves. also would u really just stand by while ur brother/son/whoeverfamilymember destroys themselves with drugs? i'm not jsut talking economically

[Jabberwock]

i think everyone knows the difference between video gaems and reality. for instance, in TWgames u never have to bother with mud, and cold and the psych trauma from being in a real battle and the psych probs of killing ppl-no post traumatic stress disorder. your insinuation that they're the same is sadly misguided.

Thank you for demonstrating how a Total War game is a representation of reality. Now, every time I play a TW game I'm gonna be thinking about those guys in Iraq then I'm gonna think about the past where they used to cut people's heads off with axes. I'm gonna think about those poor ole soldiers who are experiencing post-trauma shooting up those civilians.

I'm gonna think about those armies who did go through that mud and cold just to kill somebody.

Thank you very much.

refer above. also, TW games are an escape as all games are, where u get to becoem someone else-a powerful king or a military genius revered by the mob.

Yay, I get to be a powerful king who gets to subjugate the world. Again, thank you for this demonstration of reality.

1) it's not 'enlightenment', merely a pleasurable feeling of drugs ****ing with his brain. and

So you say.

2) ppl who care for him would suffer, as they would undoubtedly attempt to get him off the drug. at 50 bux a hit thsat's a lot of money going up his arm instead of helping himself.

Maybe they should stop trying to get him off the drug. And what exactly is helping yourself?

u start caring for others, when u start caring for urselves. also would u really just stand by while ur brother/son/whoeverfamilymember destroys themselves with drugs? i'm not jsut talking economically

If it produces the same bliss and enlightenment, why should I? Are they really destroying themselves?

[Rhinosaur]

If it produces the same bliss and enlightenment, why should I?

It doesn't. It gives you a temporary high, but doesn't give you any long term "bliss and enlightenment".

Are they really destroying themselves?

It's hard to argue that they're not. I've seen first hand how people's lives can be ruined by heroin addiction (and addiction in general), and it's really tragic.