The Philosopher's mind
Cursed be the blessed whore, that this life of mine should end, when so much yet to be explored. To think it all extinct while lucid nonetheless; to feel, to see, to taste, the cornucopia of sensations, only to recede back whence it came. Oh the horror, for such a Mind as I, which knows God more than any other Mind of man, can hardly bear the thought of everlasting bliss. There is but one retreat, here in my thoughts, where I find myself at home again. Here the Heraclitean phrase does give me comfort, as there is a single permanence, the permanence of change. ‘Tis in difference, this ephemerality, that man finds his ontology. As the resting pole in phenomena’s flight, I should know peace, since on the day I cast away this mortal coil, no further, no closer will I stand to the Divine.
Still, life and death are not the same. Deus sive natura , out of which we grow, comes to behold itself. Each man is different yet all the same one with divinity. As nature gazes upon its own visage, what does it see? Only the few, the wise, can know themselves reflected in the mirror; most, much like feral beasts, simply see an other evermore opposed to them, trapped as they are in their immediacy. I am among the former, one who comprehends his Mind as the negation of its content, raised out of nature, from the soul, this feeble thing, unto the higher realms, all the while these basic, these anthropological states resume their lives. At no stage of Mind am I bereft of these, my humble origins, but to be caught in one exemplifies a tragedy, when one’s own content haunts in daylight as it would at night.
Its strings within us, the external world can be a cunning foe. Is not the most pathetic amongst us all the one who seeks what he already owns? “Das Ding an sich! ” the Prussian screams. Look! It makes sense! Surely there must be a thing behind the thing of Mind, lest it be all a Cartesian farce. What fools they are indeed. After all, can the eye taste the sweetness of the wine? Can the tongue see the patterns on a robe? Neither can the Mind grasp that which is not its own. Yes, this implicit thing so many desperately desire is within their reach; nay, can only be within their reach. Seek and ye shall find. The object does not attain to any higher purity. Without Mind, its determinations are ineffable. Hence, in Mind, the object finds itself complete; only here can it exist as object, its boundaries defined.
But I digress. What, again, did I hope to gain from this minor inquiry of mine? Ah yes, peace. Peace is the thing I covet most. And how easy it would be to place my head, slowly, gently, into the fold of a creator. How easy it would be to deny my own existence, to tell myself I am already dead. Those are the views of thoughtless men, who seek some reality more holy than their present one. In truth, there’s nothing more real than matters of Mind. That, which by my experience asserted, forms the most perfect object, complete in and for itself. ‘Tis no illusion, ‘tis no dream, for even if it were, it’d still be real.
Thus take joy in brevity! Don’t be Reason’s whore. Reach over and above, to see your Mind in action, our blessed gift from nature’s womb. Damn the wretched beasts of old; now’s the time to exalt the right. Let Spirit move with rapid force. Let it take the world by storm! Those few of us with farther vision will serve as scribes of Reason. We shall embrace the coming of the tide; let it inundate us. For peace we’ll find not by some hand divine, but only through our grasp thereof.