1:35 a.m. on a school night and I'm spending this time as i usually do, rolling around in my bed waiting for sleep to finally come. However its not that easy. My brain wont allow it as endless thought after thought race through with no end in sight. I'm turning out to be an insomniac. These troublesome teen years are getting to me. Most nights I lay awake on the verge of tears just wanting someone that I can spill my guts out too. I wish for someone who would be almost like a father or brother to me and help me along and give wise counsel. I'm trapped in this world and extremely discontent with my position in it. Im finding myself hating everything in it and hating myself even more. The things I thought would give me pleasure have failed and I've given up. I've given up on myself. I can't help but wonder what do you have to do to find contentment. My future looks fuzzy. I don't know what to do. Help is needed.
I apologize for the meaningless topic, but frankly there is no place else to go.