So let me start off by saying that I realize that what I did was a mistake. If I had it to do over again, I obviously wouldn't go about raising my complaints with Amagi in the manner I did. For my defense, then, I really just want to point out two mitigating factors:
First, my behavior wasn't something calculated that I thought about for a while and it's not something reflective of my normal behavior on TWC. I lost my head in the middle of the night (I posted at like 5:30am) after I had been up for a long time studying for finals and writing a paper. Two of my closest friends are jewish and one of those friends is married to a hispanic person (also a friend). In my sleep deprived state, watching Amagi blame Jews for 9/11 and attack interracial marriage was too much to bear, and I made a bad decision. If I could take it back I would.
I think Viking Prince has concluded that I don't have any remorse for what I did because I didn't immediately acquiesce to his demand that I make a public apology to Amagi and surrender my citizenship. My reluctance, though, to apologize to a guy who's blaming my friends for 9/11 doesn't mean that I don't have any regret - it just means that I don't think that what VP is demanding is the correct response to my mistake. I just want to be punished the way people are normally punished when they lose their heads (through an infraction) and not by being forced to grovel before a holocaust denier or surrender my citizenship.
Second, at the time I made the post I really sincerely believed that what I did was an appropriate response to Amagi's behavior (again, I realize now that it wasn't). There are two considerations to bear in mind here:
One: I share the reluctance of many members of this board to make things like holocaust denial an infraction. I think there are times when a person might sincerely be confused about the issue, and then a discussion of the topic in the D&D section would be a better option than simply infracting the guy. If you look at Amagi, though, everything he posts is racist and hateful. My thinking, then, was that it was better to deal with racists on a case-by-case basis than by making a rule against any post that might be considered racist. Again, with some sleep I see that that's a bad idea, but at the time my post was a sincere effort to deal with a problem TWC has - I wasn't just trying to cause trouble.
Two: I'm sensitive to Viking Prince's point that members (especially unpopular members) need to be protected from being attacked on the boards in a way that would make them uncomfortable posting here. But that also applies to members who fall into minority groups (e.g. Jewish members), and I think that the behavior of Amagi and certain other members in the mudpit makes it really hard for Jewish or interacially married members to be comfortable as members of the community. At the time I posted I felt (and to be honest, I still feel) that the moderation staff wasn't doing enough to make TWC a welcoming place not only for holocaust deniers but also for Jewish members. In other words, at the time I posted I wasn't disregarding the sorts of concerns Viking Prince raises - I was just acting on them in the wrong way.
Again, I realize that the way I raised that concern was inappropriate. If people feel that I've violated the ToS, the moderation staff should issue me an infraction. I've already been castigated pretty hard by jimkatalanos and I'm embarrassed by my own behavior. I think that that, perhaps in combination with a warning, is punishment enough. If the CdeC really feels the need to take an action, I think a decision to censure me would be most appropriate.
Finally, it's important to remember here that just being a citizen doesn't make you perfect - even people who are normally extremely level headed can be set off in certain circumstances, and that's really how I think this case should be viewed. I'd invite you guys to take a look at all my past behavior on TWC (and not just this one post) in determining whether I still deserve to be a citizen.
-Magickyleo101