my g/f and i broke up qutie cordially about a month and a half ago, and i was sort of ok with it. heartbroken but dealing with it ok.
we broke up becuz she wanted a commitment and i couldnt give it to her at the time, seeing as how i'm travelling for bizness/work/education in a coupla months.
and we were still friends. still friendly towards one another and still as close as we were for the last 3 yrs we were together.
then i find out another bloke's after her and how shall i say it, 'courting' her.
my ex-g/f wants to settle down with a family and kids etc so she's a bit conflicted about it. it was, after all only 1 and a half months since we last broke up.
as for me, i'm overcome with a jealousy i never knew i had. i torture myself and give myself no peace of mind over what she and this other man are doing.
talking, caressing each other, Aarggh. it's all getting a bit too much.
i feel really angry and want to break things but i try not to criticize her because on some level i still love her, and am now trying my hardest to detach myself so the heartache and pain will just go away.
and i'm peeved at myself, at life and a part of me wants to lash out at everyone.
i've done the whole gettin drunk with friends thing. didnt help much.
and getting a rebound g/f would, i feel, cheapen what my ex g/f and i once had.