I'm starting to feel trapped in life. spent all my money on buying a small small flat (studio in dutch). I'm in doubt if I shouldn't have kept my money. Even a visit to the Cinema has to be calculated in my expenses income budget
At first I thought I had achieved something, but then a former friend of mine gets a girlfriend and they both get a loan from the bank and actually bought a house wich kind of renders my acomplishment to nothing. (alltough I only had to loan 20 k from the bank and only because people whom I lended money are taking years to pay me back. And he loaned a lot more). And then there's this other friend, who has a girlfriend who worships the ground he walks upon resulting in them letting a villa, having a big tv, a car, digital tv, internet and a motorcycle. She paid for 75% of everything since he is up to his neck in debts from being an idiot and a former thief who got cought. Wich kind of diminishes my acomplishments in life since he basicly has every piece of luxury I want and he doesn't even deserves it since he cheats on his girlfriend on an almost daily basis with his ex and he admitted to me he doesn't love his girlfriend but he likes the easy life.
I do know that I just moved out and that in 3 months I no longer have to pay rent for my old place anymore, resulting in the end of my money crisis (well.. I still can't imediatly buy a big screen flat HD tv but if I saved I could 3 months after that). However it annoys me that others who made 0 effort have it a lot better then me just because they are better with woman and because they pick their woman better.
I wish I could sell everything I have, leave without saying anything to annyone and start a new somewhere else. But I'm stuck here for the next 3 years because I have to effectively live in this studio for the next 3 years, otherwise I had to pay an extra registration fee to the city.
I feel kind of as if I'm a loser who will allways be outdone by people who hardly try